When I Am Afraid

When I am afraid I will trust in You
When I'm overcome I will cling onto

The Rock that is higher, He's higher
The Rock that is higher,
When my enemy's too strong for me
I don't know how to fight the fear

That comes against my heart and mind
I call upon the name of Christ
He's higher, He's higher, He's higher
When my enemy's surrounding me
He comes to steal my joy, my peace

I let go of my reasoning
And fall upon the Rock
That is higher, He's higher

I will not build my life upon the passing sands
Of how I feel inside from one moment to the next
But I will love you Lord, my Rock, my God, my Strength
A precious cornerstone that floods of death can never shake

For there is no peace of mind, outside of truth in Christ
For the fear is real and it's power can kill
But the stability of our times, the stability of our times
Will be the Rock that is higher, He's higher
The Rock that is higher

So for the past several months I have really been struggling. If you know me, I'm going to be transparent. I've found myself in a battle between what I know is true and my feelings. Feelings- it's almost as if that switch has been turned off for most of my life. Not that I haven't had to deal with them before, but it's definitely never been like this. I have found myself questioning myself, questioning what I know is true, questioning Him. My reasoning has been the fan to this flame...and my pride, my own ability to produce results.

*October 21* I stopped here to come back to this post later but...I think this is sufficient. That last sentence is more than capable of describing what's been going on. And to be completely honest- He has simply put a stop to it...so I will to. I will not build my life upon the passing sands of how I feel inside from one moment to the next~