to busy to say anything

I am hoping for some time to sit down and actually post something of value. This week is just insane. But...tomorrow IS Thursday, thank God!

charcoal

I didn't go to school today. I had a reason though, unlike an unnamed person I know (bj). I think I might have had an allergic reaction to the charcoal I used for my English project. I woke up this morning around 4 and my stomach was killing me. I was really nauseous, clammy, and so dizzy I could hardly see straight. The bottom of my feet and my palms started to itch really bad and swell up (swoll up, started to swell- I don't know how to use it). The only thing that I can think of is that I'm allergic to charcoal. I didn't eat anything different than my family and they aren't sick. I don't know, It's really weird. Oh well. I will be at school tomorrow though!

full of earth and dust

I love the words to this song. It's a David Crowder Band song called "Wholly Yours". It shows me how big He really is and how our life is just a vapor.

I am full of earth
You are heaven’s worth
I am stained with dirt, prone to depravity
You are everything that is bright and clean
The antonym of me
You are divinity
But a certain sign of grace is this
From the broken earth flowers come up
Pushing through the dirt

You are holy, holy, holy
All heaven cries “Holy, holy God”
You are holy, holy, holy
I want to be holy like You are

You are everything that is bright and clean
And You’re covering me with Your majesty
And the truest sign of grace was this
From wounded hands redemption fell down
Liberating man

But the harder I try the more clearly can I feel
The depth of our fall and the weight of it all
And so this might could be the most impossible thing
Your grandness in me making me clean

Glory, hallelujah
Glory, glory, hallelujah
So here I am, all of me
Finally everything
Wholly, wholly, wholly
I am wholly, wholly
I am wholly, wholly, wholly
Yours
I am full of earth and dirt and You

john 15

I know all I've really been posting is the Word latley. Personaly I see that way more profound than anything I have to say. I was re-reading this this morning and several things jumped out at me. I just saw alot of what we talked about Sunday in here. About the difference of hearing and doing.

"I am the True Vine, and My Father is the Vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away. And every one that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bring forth more fruit. Now you are clean through the Word which I have spoken to you.
Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it remains in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the Vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, the same brings forth much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered. And they gather and cast them into the fire, and they are burned. If you abide in Me, and My Words abide in you, you shall ask what you will, and it shall be done to you. In this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit, so you shall be My disciples. "

Ok. Stop right here. This we all know, I'm aware of that. It is just amazing to me how the Word is living. I've read this a thousand times and it has just now really clicked. To bear fruit is the "doing" part of what I have posted earlier. It's one thing to be a fruit tree and another to actually produce fruit. It's funny because you can look at the verse that says "everyone that bears fruit, He prunes so that it may bring forth more fruit." This pruning hurts. It involves a cutting. A cutting of what? You could go now to the "uncircumcised heart" and our process of "moving on to perfection". We always say repentance is a continuous thing, do we really believe it? It seems to me we despise the very thing that will produce more fruit, fruit unto righteousness in our lives. Jesus also says here "abide in me". that didn't sound like an option but rather a command. Jesus said that if we loved Him, we would keep His commands right? right.
The definition of abide is this: to remain; continue; stay; to have one's abode; dwell; reside; to continue in a particular condition, attitude, relationship, etc. To abide in Christ, that means that we have to actually know him. "We will never hear the voice of the Lord without being in intimate relationship with him. Does Jesus know you?" Jesus said that if we don’t bear fruit we would be cast out. We can’t say we are Christians or disciples of Christ if we do not abide in Him and bear fruit.

“As the Father has loved Me, so I have loved you; continue in My love. If you keep My commandments, you shall abide in My love, even as I have kept My Father's commandments and abide in His love. I have spoken these things to you so that My joy might remain in you and your joy might be full. This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. No one has greater love than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master does. But I have called you friends, for all things that I have heard from My Father I have made known to you.”

Right here Jesus said that we had to abide in His love and keep His commandments. He said to love one another. There is that relationship thing. It’s not an option. We have to have fellowship with one another. We have to love one another. If we don’t, we are not considered His friends. Notice the big “IF”. You actually have to KEEP (do) something.

“You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you and ordained you that you should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain; that whatever you shall ask of the Father in My name, He may give it to you. These things I command you, that you love one another."

Jesus has chosen us to bear fruit so anything less of that is a slap in the face to Him. He said that your fruit should remain. A lot of us have this mindset of “wow, I’m doing good right now.” What is that all about? We are not called to live in an emotional high (flesh) but in the Spirit. People tend to always go uP and DoWn. Jesus said here that “your fruit should remain the same”. This doesn’t mean that you get to one place and stop; this means that you leave Egypt never to return again. The farther you walk, the closer you get to the goal, but you never regress back. You never turn around. You always stay in relationship loving one another.

“If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. But because you are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you, The servant is not greater than his master. If they have persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. If they have kept My saying, they will also keep yours. But all these things they will do to you for My name's sake, because they do not know Him who sent Me. If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not have had sin; but now they have no excuse for their sin. He who hates Me hates My Father also. If I had not done among them the works which no other did, they would not have had sin. But now they have both seen and hated Me and My Father. But that the Word might be fulfilled that is written in their Law, "They hated Me without a cause."

This right here is interesting. It seems as if he all of a sudden changes subjects but he really doesn’t. You can determine if you are of the world or abiding in Christ by the way the world looks, and treats you. He says that the world would love it’s own. Are you of the world? Is the world dead to you, or does it fascinate you? God said that he called us out of the world, to be in it, not of it. It says that since they persecuted Him, they would persecute us. Why would they persecute us? Well, why did they persecute Jesus? Because Jesus produced fruit unto righteousness. He DID things, lived them out, not just talked about them. The generation today feels uncomfortable when around someone who actually does what he says. Someone who walks the walk, not just talks the talk. This makes them uncomfortable because it shows them how flip-floppy they are. It’s been hard for me lately at school as far as this topic is concerned but there has been much grace through it all.

With this statement I will end this post for now. Really think about this.
Leonard Ravenhill once said, “And there’s no room for Him in the inn. He got a bit older and there was no room in His family, his family turned on Him. He went to the temple and the temple turned on Him. And when He died there was no room to bury Him, He died outside of the city. Well why in God’s name do you expect to be accepted everywhere? How is it that the world couldn’t get on with the holiest man that ever lived and it can get on with you and me? Are we compromised? Are we of no spiritual stature? Are we of no righteousness that reflects on their corruption?”

school...what else can i say?

School is school is school. Today in biology we did a neat experiment involving hydrogen peroxide, fire, and chicken liver. (sounds disgusting, i know) The liver was the catalase, or the enzyme that speed up something or another. We had to put 6 ml of HG in a test tube and then put a piece of liver in the tube and cover it up to let it build pressure. Then we lit the wooden stick thing and blew it out. We had to sick it in the test tube and see how many times it would light. Anyway, I know that might sound pretty boring but it's better than having to take notes for a hour. Next semester we get to dissect all sorts of things. From a worm to a cat. I'm excited. This teacher, known as Doc, is my favorite teacher so far. Well of I go to read _Night_. I actually like this one. It's interesting to hear a description of the holocaust by some one who was there and experienced everything and made it out alive.

this morning was so good in the house today

Each week I see how the Body, when brought together, fitly joined together, produces a whole word. Some have a song, some a hymn, some a scripture, a teaching and so forth, but when it is all brought together it makes a much bigger picture. It really is amazing to see how much the Holy Spirit is moving and how we are flowing in the Spirit. Today we were talking about Bro.Teryl's word on hearing. He makes some very good statement about hearing vs. Doing. Brother Pat Hayes said:"Having wisdom is thinking like God, Being wise is behaving like God!!!". That's what I think so many people don't truly understand. The past couple of months so many people have come and gone in our body. The last two weeks have just shown me that these people who have been serving God for 10, 15, 25, 30 years, the reason why they're leaving is because they feel uncomfortable. The reason is because for the past 10, 15, 25, 30 years all they have done is heard the word, but never put that word into action. Brother Teryl says in his article, "Our knowledge of God must produce obedient behavior or we will be judged for it!!!". That's a big thing. It makes you step back and truly look at your life. Am I just a hearer and not a doer? Does my life produce obedient behavior? If not we need to search our hearts and pray that God would reverse the judgments that are on us and open up our hears. Jesus said over and over when He was teaching "He that has ears, let him hear." I believe Jesus's definition of hearing and our definition are two different things. When Jesus said "hear" he meant hear and obey. It's one thing to hear how tie your shoe, it's another thing to actually do it. So many people for so many years have head and thought that was enough and Jesus is shining light on it. He's saying that hearing isn't enough. The Word says you have WORK out you salvation. It says we have to BEAR FRUIT unto righteousness. It all comes back to obedience. Jesus was obedient, why can we be like that? Why can't we just DO as we're told?
Philippians 2:27- 2:18 explains everything we talked about today. The communion even came out of this.

"Only let your conduct be as becomes the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you, or else am absent, I may hear of your affairs, that you stand fast in one spirit, striving together with one mind for the faith of the gospel, and terrified in nothing by your adversaries. For this is to them an evident token of perdition, but to you of salvation, and that of God. For to you it is given on behalf of Christ not only to believe on Him, but also to suffer for His sake, having the same conflict which you saw in me, and now hear to be in me. If there is therefore any encouragement in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if antendernesses and mercies, then fulfill my joy, that you may be like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord and of one mind. Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than themselves. Do not let each man look upon his own things, but each man also on the things of others. For let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God, but made Himself of no reputation, and took upon Himself the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men. And being found in fashion as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.
Therefore God has highly exalted Him, and has given Him a name which is above every name,
that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of heavenly ones, and of earthly ones, and of ones under the earth; and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, cultivate your own salvation with fear and trembling. For it is God who works in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure. Do all things withoumurmuringgs and disputings, so that you may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation. Among these you shine as lights in the world,
holding forth the Word of Life, so that I may rejoice with you in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain nor labored in vain. Yea, and if I am offered upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I joy and rejoice with you all. And you also rejoice in the same, and rejoice with me."

Amen.

psalm 136

I read this Psalm this morning. I love it. When I read anything about how great He is my heart is stirred. When I'm reminded of how great He is my worries, troubles, concerns,everything, it all just fades away. His mercy does endure forever. It reminds me that I am full of earth and dirt and He is Holy!

"O give praise to the Lord, for he is good: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
O give praise to the God of gods: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
O give praise to the Lord of lords: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who only does great wonders: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who by wisdom made the heavens: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him by whom the earth was stretched out over the waters: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who made great lights: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
The sun to have rule by day: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
The moon and the stars to have rule by night: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who put to death the first-fruits of Egypt: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
And took out Israel from among them: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
With a strong hand and an outstretched arm: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who made a way through the Red Sea: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
And let Israel go through it: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
By him Pharaoh and his army were overturned in the Red Sea: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who took his people through the waste land: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
To him who overcame great kings: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
And put noble kings to death: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
Sihon, king of the Amorites: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
And Og, king of Bashan: for his mercy is unchanging for ever:
And gave their land to his people for a heritage: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
Even a heritage for his servant Israel: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
Who kept us in mind when we were in trouble: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
And has taken us out of the hands of our haters: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
Who gives food to all flesh: for his mercy is unchanging for ever.
O give praise to the God of heaven: for his mercy is unchanging for ever."

Florida is wet.

This is not me but one of my best friends Bekah typing parts of a conversation:

My stupid other blog got messed up. So I had to make this one. I used to call my pacifier my "goony". I just made it up one day and said "I want my goony." Lemme throw this question out to ya'll... But we need to be happy while we can because my question is very solemn and grim... BJ is telling us about his new iPod that he ordered. Of course I'm sure you'll read all about it very shortly. I am now officially avoiding telling ya'll what this question is while I go on and on about my extensive iPod knowledge. Jacob's nickname is "Cob".. known to BJ as "Squirrel Food".. okay, okay.. here's the question: We were reading this book called "Night".. it's about the Holocaust.. I was thinking... I don't understand why God allowed that to happen to like 6 billion people who were "his people - the Jews".. I don't understand the reasoning behind that. You see what I'm saying? Why would God allow that to happen to "the children".. They didn't back down from their belief whether it was right or wrong, and God just allowed a whole nationality to die. My teacher made a comment.. She said it's funny how we think of the Holocaust because it was pledged that nothing like that would ever happen again in the world... but it's happening in Iraq and the middle east all over the place.

Jordan changed the subject and went serious then started talking about her gopher lip.. then went serious again.

Just so ya'll know: This is how a typical conversation with my friends goes. This is part of who I am.